Skip to main content

A Word for Wednesday: Gritty


I was driving down the interstate the other and Miranda Lambert's newest single came on the radio. I wasn't paying much attention, its a song I already know and love. Then the chorus came. The words are gritty, like a lot of Ms. Lambert's songs. 

But you went away.
How dare you?
I miss you.
They say I'll be okay.
But I'm not ever going to get over you.

This perfectly sums up the feelings I've had over the loss of my grandmother. There is such a void in my life that was left with her passing and it hit me in that moment. I started to cry. I was trying so hard to pull myself together and I finally did. I was headed to dinner with some friends and had I known that I was going to be an hour early I would have just let myself cry. 

Later that night I was talking with one of my dearest friends and we began to reminisce about a trip we had taken. It was one of those trips where everything that could go wrong or be weird was and its hilarious, at least to us. As we talked we began to laugh. And we laughed until we weren't making noise any longer. I had tears coming out of my eyes, of a very different kind. 

That night as I washed my face and rid myself of the traces of both sets of tears I realized that life is such a wonderful experience. I could cry and laugh in the matter of hours. Life is gritty and we don't acknowledge it. There is pain, there is laughter. There is heartache, there is new life. There is sadness, there is uncontrollable laughter. 

I think this is why I love Natalie Grant's song "Held." I listened to it with new ears yesterday and these words stuck out to me:

To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling.

There is so much gritty honesty in those lyrics. It is appalling. The song goes on to say.

The promise was when everything fell
We'd be held.

That is the promise. That is the hope, we are held by a Savior. A Savior who has walked a gritty and harder road than we do. A Savior who gave is life for us on a cross, after he was betrayed and beaten and mocked. Jesus knows exactly how gritty our lives are, how difficult it can be. He understands when we cry out "Why, God?" and understands our pitiful moans of "Why me?" 

I've been dealing with a lot in my life lately. And I've been dealing with it very privately. So much so no one knows all that I've had on my mind, except my Savior. I've created silence in my life where I can, because that it what I can control. If you've asked my how I'm doing I probably told you great or fine or wonderful. That's mostly true. When I've been around others and not in my own head I have felt that way. Very few people in our lives understand the tone in which we say such words.

This Easter, please know that God is on his throne and he loves you. He sent his Son to save you from your sins by dying on a cross. You will be loved by Him more than you can imagine.

Comments

  1. Great thoughts. That kind of honesty can be comforting when you're struggling with stuff. I'm praying for you!

    ReplyDelete
  2. Thanks, Brens! I miss you, but I know I will see you soon(ish)!

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Thanks so much for commenting! I hope you know it means the world to me to hear from you.

Popular posts from this blog

How to Complain

After yesterday's post, I though I should provide something a little more helpful to my readers. Here are some tips I've developed from answering customer service calls and emails from time to time. You may have some other extremely helpful tips, feel free to leave them in the comments so we can all benefit!
Be Specific. This is definitely my number one tip. If you aren't specific it means that the person on the other end doesn't know details that can be used to rectify the situation. Also, the more details you provide the more credibility you lend to the situation. If it is a reoccurring incident call each time it happens. From a customer service standpoint, we would rather rectify the situation now than find about it in two days when it has happened two more times.Don't Rant, Yell, or Scream. Tell someone you would like to complain and then do it with a cool head. This may mean that you need to write an email complaint versus getting on the phone. Keep in mind th…

Lizzy & Jane by Katherine Reay

I'm a big fan of Katherine Reay's work. Her stories are entertaining and deep. I took this a book to read on the beach, but I couldn't put it down and spent time reading instead of beaching. Lizzy and Jane are sisters. Estranged by the past and living on different coasts when Jane is diagnosed with cancer. Lizzy returns home for a visit and they struggle to reconnect in ways that will help heal. 

You can trust Reay to take you on an emotional journey with her books and Lizzy and Jane did not disappoint. The characters are real with their own passions, struggles and flaws. Their family is fractured, but the hope they have for rebuilding is alive. 

I loved this book and I think you will too. My only complaint was that it eventually ended.

The Royal We by Heather Cocks & Jessica Morgan

Hi, Sweetums! I should warn you that I'm about to gush!

I just finished The Royal We by Heather Cocks & Jessica Morgan. To say it was unputdownable is an understatement.

Cornell college student Bex Porter decides to do an exchange program at Oxford one semester and when she arrives on campus who should open the door to her new life but Steve Prince Nick. Bex didn't come to Oxford in hopes of finding love, she came for the adventure and the art. What she finds instead is something so much more.

Let me start by saying that I love princess books. From The Princess Diaries to The Runaway Princess to the Royal Wedding Series, I can't get enough.

The Royal We did not disappoint with its lively and well developed characters. It's British backdrop and truthful narrator gave it the feel of having a chat with your bestie over a cup of tea. I stayed up late and got up early so that I could keep reading. I didn't want this book to end. But it didn't disappoint, even until…